Not a Victim Blog #5
Well, I messed up!! I’m not proud of myself at all. I became that person I used to judge from the side lines. But it was all me! I lost it! It’s amazing how much power a narcissistic personality has, when the target is not rooted in Gods word and not immersed with the power of prayer.
I didn’t start the day out with specific prayer for the moment. I didn’t come prepared. I reacted in a moment of weakness. I allowed the narcissist to bring me down to their level. I became the victim allowing the narcissist to claim a victim triumph. After this devastating show of defeat, the narcissist couldn’t get to their phone fast enough to share how mistreated they had been. And rightly so. I gave this personality a truth to share. I’m ashamed and overtook and defeated. And here I am trying to help the readers of this blog, how hypocritical of me. My attitude has forever changed. My relationship completely broken. I’ve given up. Given in. Deflated. I’ve been beaten. But then God gently lifts my chin, looks me in the eyes, and says…
…“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is perfected in weakness.” …
2 Corinthians 12:9 CSB
The advice I gave in an earlier blog about writing a narcissist instead of talking, when possible? Well, it backfired on me. It works for a while, but like everything else I’ve tried, sooner or later the narcissist learns how to use it against us. They are ruthless. I am weak. I cave. I react.
It took me a few days before I could write again. But maybe God showed me this to reveal to me that this blog isn’t about how to change the narcissistic personalities. No we can’t do that. They’re everywhere, turn on the tv, look at social media, walk down the street, you’re sure to meet at least one. No this blog is about us! The ones who struggle against the narcissistic personalities. We can’t hide. We can’t run. We can’t stick our heads in the sand. What can we do? What should we do? Let’s look to Gods word. Let’s learn this together.
Here are some verses God gave me for this blog…I find it interesting that the same verse shows up in different books of the Bible. Doesn’t that amplify the importance?
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8 Comments
Nicole Busacker
Thank you for sharing! I agree we all need to look to God for strength instead of trying to rely on our own strength.
Debbie Hymer
Thank you for the support.
Ty
The word of God says in revelation that “We overcome by the blood of the lamb and by the words of our testimony “. Why God allows certain people (family) to cause so much grief in our lives, I’ll never know! But the woman you are and are becoming to help so many by your testimony and transparency is how God is glorified!! Great blog.
Debbie Hymer
Thank you for the encouragement! That means a lot and is very helpful to hear. Our Father is using you as well!
Takhia Gaither Stuckey
Thank you for posting the verses! I am dealing with a narcissistic person myself and actually working on a few things to put out, one of them being a devotional. Prayers for you as you continue to maneuver through this and prayers for strength and the peace of God to always surround and sustain you.
Debbie Hymer
Thank you for the encouragement! That’s exciting to hear about your devotional, keep me posted. My prayers are for you as well. God is using us to share His love and comfort to others! My book will more than likely be a fictional story, something any reader can pick up and be encouraged and strengthened.
Stacey
Thank you for sharing this post! Very deep. Thank you so much for those powerful verses. Each verse stirs something within… something wonderful…
Debbie Hymer
Thank you. I just love Gods Word! It’s alive and speaks to us the very things we need to hear.